A Sad Happy Birthday to me!

28 May, 2008

Posted by: Zang Caesar In: Personal

I’m officially saying goodbye to my nonage, and it is time I embraced 22. It is kind of sad to know that you get older everyday, but it is much more of a blessing to have been blessed with this life and the years that go with it.

Birthdays are something someone looks forward to, because it is his special day. And I too looked forward to my birthday, not because of the foods that comes with it or the party that will be set up, nor the gifts I will be receiving but the mere fact that I have attained that age. And why don’t I look forward to the foods, the party or the gifts? It’s because I was accustomed to having sad, uncelebrated birthdays.

Perhaps the only birthdays where my parents bothered to celebrate was when I was one, and that’s as evident as the pictures in my photo album. Since I had gained consciousness, I can never recall any birthday celebrated since that. How sad. That’s why you could just melt in envy when you see those classmates of yours in your elementary and high school days celebrating their birthdays, if you were in my shoes.

First reason, we’re dirt poor. That’s why birthdays in our house is never celebrated. Just the mushy “Happy Birthday!” or the meager foods like roasted chicken (it’s always like that!) and another viand bought from a local store if lucky. At times there really isn’t anything special, especially if it’s my birthday. It befalls on the 27^th of May and it is this time of the year where parents save up for their children’s enrollment for school. That’s the second reason why I am used to having quiet birthdays.

But because I was accustomed to that, it all seemed very normal to me, that I don’t get sad any worse. I just let it, and just let the day pass with my silent, self celebration that I have turned a year older, and to thank God for the years He’s given me and that there will be more years for me on the way.

Despite all of the “sad” birthdays, I didn’t hate my parents for that. It only drives me to persevere in life so all the things I want in life, I can get.

Belated Happy 2^nd Birthday to me! And also Happy 5^th year to Wordpress. I am sorry, my blogs, I didn’t write anything right on my birthday. Your owner was very, very busy with his nursing career…